I Give Up

Gargoyles_logoFor the last year and a half, I’ve been working on a story. I’ve been through numerous ideas; starting and restarting outlines, creating character profiles, writing scenes. All with the goal of creating a web serial story. I thought I could make it an original story, but, I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t. Not with this story.

I’ve written, and even posted a few stories from some Gargoyle fanfic I wrote nearly 18 years ago. I tried taking ideas from that universe and spin it into one of its own, and I just can’t do it. I came to this conclusion when I decided to write up an outline I had created for the beginning of one of my fanfics. This story is one I’ve already re-revised once, and the expanded opening was just to be the icing on the cake. But as I started writing, I realized everything I’ve been doing, everything I’ve been thinking about was really made for this story. It just worked. Everything clicked the more I thought about it, while with my attempt to make it original, I just struggled.

So, I’ve decided to give up on trying to make an original story, and just throw everything whole hog into writing this fanfic. I originally thought writing fanfic would be more of a negative for me, but I see now this is the opportunity I need to refine my writing skills. As I apply the writing tips I’ve been picking up, I’m finding there is so much more I can do with the story. I am expanding not just the story, but the characters and better define their relationships. The intervening years have really helped as well. I’m not the same person I was 18 years ago, and have that much more experience I can add to the story.

I don’t consider the last year and a half a waste though. It was a valuable experience as well, as I not only went through one idea after another, I spent a lot of time just researching writing and what makes a good story, and learned a lot. I hope it shows in the story. I’d love to find some alpha/beta readers for this. It is turning out to be quite the epic, and it’s truly a story I want to tell. I just hope it’s one that people will want to read.

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